So for the past few days my back has hurt. I mean like pulled muscle type of hurt. But only in certain places. Right now it hurts when I move too fast, twist my self, or cough. I have such a dry cough because of the dry weather, and the blood pressure meds. So it's almost torture to cough. Sneezing throws me into sharp pain too. I have no idea what I did. Nothing that I can think of that would cause such pain.
I got kind of worried because it felt like the pain is right where my kidney is. But since I'm not a doctor I'm not sure. I tried to look up stuff because as we know, the Internet is the great and glorious scary place.... lol
It says that back pain can be a symptom of kidney failure or disease. and since I 1) know I am having poor kidney function due to my diabetes and 2) one of my kidneys, (although I don't remember which one) has a partially clogged vein going to it, I am feeling a bit concerned.
But I don't want to go back to the doctor. I just don't. It's like being sent to the principles office for not doing your homework. Only there's no chance of making up the work. Silly I know.
The effort to eat better has been a total failure. Not really for lack of trying, so much as lack of energy and patience. I am so tired I can't want to do anything that will help me make healthy meals, the past week with my Auntie Elaine passing, Dan and I have been kind of too busy to eat in. So we've ate out a lot. Burgers, fries, ect.....
I did make dinner tonight. Not a totally healthy by any means, but I am going to assume on the healthy scale Grilled chicken w/BBQ sauce, Smith's potato salad, and corn on the cob is way better than a whopper and fries. My goal is to get back on track w/my eating. Now I just need to get back on track with my Insulin too. And testing of course. It's kind of crazy how you can go in spurts. One week I'm testing 2 to 4 times a day and then suddenly I'm tired of it and I go weeks w/out bothering. I've got to do something though. My plan so far is a failure, and I do not want to spend the next few years being an invalid.
So wish me luck my friends. Keep me on the straight and narrow. Not by lecturing, but just by being supportive. Please don't make me make excuses to you, because it will just make me resent it. but please do feel free to say: Hey, I hear ______(enter healthy food here) ___ is on sale. You should get some.
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I wonder if you are getting so overwhelmed by trying to be too good too quick. My suggestion would be to take baby steps. Start with one meal a day and say "okay, breakfast is going to be my goal this week, no mcDonalds" then move on the next week to another meal or snacks or something. Just a little at a time, that is what is working for me. I allow myself one day a week to screw up (even though I KNOW I will pay for it). Allowing myself a mess up day helps me get through most of the hard moments. Blood sugar testing can work the same way. Pick a time of day that is easiest for you to remember and follow through. Start with once a day and then move up when you are doing good with that. It is tough to be good, especially when you are hurting or really busy. Hang in there okay.
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